Step 5

I don’t remember ever hearing a term like “The gates of insanity” before.  It sure did describe me when I got here.  In fact, I think I had one foot inside the gate.  I knew I was crazy and there was no hope for me. The program of AA has promised me that if I am rigorously honest with myself … Read More

Why an Inventory?

“Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves” “Step Four.  It is the beginning of a lifetime practice in gaining a meaningful perspective or yourself.” So counseled the Sponsor to his Sponsee as they shared a hefty piece of apple pie alamode at Fellowship Hall. SPONSEE: Yeah.  But what’s in it for me?  After all, I have gone to … Read More

Made a decision . . .

“I made the decision to turn my life and will over to the care of God as I understand Him.” Since 1969 I have gone to church, meditated, prayed, read book after book trying to learn how to surrender, to rid myself of my ever present ego.  My ego fought me tooth and nail. I wanted to switch the light … Read More

Came to believe . . .

Step two, “came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.” The compulsion to drink for me was not the only “Merciless obses-sion” that came to compel me in my insanity of alcoholism. Having had lost faith in the God I had come to perceive as punitive, wrathful and vindictive. At first I was torn … Read More