90 & 90 – Aaron T_Lifeline Mar 2020

As I write this I’m 41. Yes, I’m still in prison but that does not matter. My friend is on the 90 & 90 kick and that’s good for him. I’m on the meetings every day and sometimes 2. That way when I get released, it will be a part of my thinking. People say that in prison it’s easy to go to meetings ’cause there is nothing else to do! Well, that’s true except I’m in a program and also high school, and also other programs so I’m pretty busy. So I go ’cause I need to. I first came into A.A. 30 years ago, so by the time I was 11 I was already an alcoholic and on my way to being a drug addict. I see the board soon and want to make sure that A.A. is a major part of my life upon release. Let me explain my reasoning. I can go to a meeting a day or whatever I need to remain sober, which amounts to 7hrs a week, or I can sit in prison.
…so by the time I was 11 I was already an alcoholic and on my way to being a drug addict. I see the board soon and want to make sure that A.A. is a major part of my life upon release. Let me explain my reasoning. I can go to a meeting a day or whatever I need to remain sober, which amounts to 7 hrs a week, or I can sit in prison for 24 hrs a day for however long until my release, and I do know that the stays usually get longer and longer. And I am sick and tired of holidays and birthdays locked up. I am sick and tired of expensive phone calls. But mostly, I am sick and tired of being controlled by chemicals. Thank you God for keeping me sober today. I have been stuck on Step 4 for, oh, 30 years and I am happy to finally say that I have completed it as of today. And it was by me letting God guide me instead of the other way around that this was possible. And as a result have forgiven myself!
Now I can truly love everyone else in my life and society.
-Aaron T.

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